The other day I was dancing with Jennifer and when the song finished I asked “Do you have any suggestions?” [symptomatic if I really feel like I need that validation. From these guys, yes.]

“Well… not really… Though there were times you were hesitating. You don’t need to.”

Oh, guess what I do frequently all the time for everything I do:

The behaviors or mental acts are aimed at preventing or reducing distress or preventing some dreaded event or situation; however, these behaviors or mental acts either are not connected in a realistic way with what they are designed to neutralize or prevent or are clearly excessive.

I cannot perform a dance move until I’ve gone over it in my mind. And I tell others that. And it sounds like the most ridiculous thing in the world:

The person recognizes that the obsessional thoughts, impulses, or images are a product of his or her own mind (not imposed from without as in thought insertion)

This is why I enjoy losing myself to booze and blues - takes this away.

Then, there’s the hoarding. (bleh)

So, the big question is: What do I do to turn all of these behaviors into good practices?

For starters, ask a girl out when I like her instead of not doing anything except losing sleep, morale, opportunities, and everything good about life

THIS IS A JOURNEY! Unfortunately for my followers, this is exciting, because I’m sorely messed up and now I can name its messed-up-ness. I like exploring madness. (It’s called a high tolerance for emotional distress… which is weird… because I should be able to manage my own emotions better. Instead, I can’t throw out things.)